Day 2 done. Today was a little better although I felt very low this morning and stayed in bed as late as my schedule would let me even when that meant that my morning rituals were very rushed. Even the sunshine and blue sky wasn't tempting.
I had an early morning appt with my doctor about blood work. I feel grateful that my blood sugar is not elevated (there is a family history of adult onset (type 2) diabetes, and alcoholism and diabetes are closely linked in many people). But my cholesterol levels aren't stellar and she wanted to talk about medication for it. We had a good conversation. She was most supportive of my getting off sugar and she knows how long I've been trying to do this. So we've agreed to check blood levels again in 3 months and see what the dietary changes can bring.
My housecleaner Jane came today. She's a lovely woman and it felt good to have her here and to have my house clean and sparkling--that shifted the energy in the house and my energy as well. I also told her what I was up to and she decided to join in by giving up sugar for herself. In fact, several readers of the blog are also making their own changes so I feel much less alone in this adventure.
I got more than a dozen emails of support and some of you also commented on the blog and I so appreciate your kind wishes and solidarity with me in this.
My sobriety from alcohol was solidly based in Alcoholics Anonymous and I had hoped that Overeaters Anonymous would work for me in the same way. But it hasn't, and maybe because it isn't Sugar Eaters Anonymous. While addiction is addiction is addiction, there are differences with each substance of choice that are crucial in the recovery conversation. I hope to explore some of those differences in upcoming posts.
I took it easy today. Let my schedule be fluid, watched some very funny episodes of 30 Rock. Laughter as medicine seemed a good idea. I'm still awfully restless and there's a kind of internal jitteryness that I associate with a hangover and withdrawal, something I haven't felt for a lot of years. I know that will pass as my pancreas rests and the rest of my hormones settle down but it is unpleasant now.
Thanks again for your kind wishes. Glad to be headed off to bed.