It's been a long first day without sugar. I did okay this morning. Went to the gym, had a good breakfast, did a little work, got a shower, went up to the Japanese Garden and saw the great art exhibit up there. Got home about 2:30 and I was really hungry. And I ate, and I ate, and I ate. I felt restless, unsatisfied. I was full, I wasn't hungry, but I couldn't stop eating. I was searching for that feeling, that shut-off valve that I associate with lots of sugar and I just couldn't get there. Finally after I'd eaten a far amount of fat (nuts and cheese), the restlessness got a little better.
But all afternoon I had a hard time sitting still. I'd read for 10 minutes, jump up and do something, turn on a DVD, check email. I was anxious, anxious, anxious. I kept thinking I should get something done, be creative, or get something checked off my very long to do list around the house but I couldn't settle on anything. I couldn't settle down. For a very long time I've used sugar to do that.
My very knowledgeable therapist suggests it will take 3-6 weeks to right my brain chemistry. That's right, my brain. I've doping myself with sugar and that impacts the levels of serotonin and dopamine, the feel-good chemicals. My body is used to sugar providing that hit and today I clearly didn't have much.
I do feel glad that I gave everything sweet away and put the bits and pieces of leftovers in the garbage with the kitty litter. No temptation there. But I sure would have liked to postpone day 1.