Friday, February 16, 2018

Changing my schedule, changing my conditioning

As I move towards working less (I work now about half-time), I've bumping up against some very old conditioning: do your homework before you play. This was a rule in my house growing up. We came home, got a snack, and settled in to our homework (and chores) and then if there was time left over, we could play or read or do whatever we liked. I was a kid who enjoyed learning and who enjoyed studying so this was not a hardship for me. And it served me well with my parents, with my teachers, with my professors in college. It also has served me well in my various careers and is undoubtedly a big part of the success I've had.

But now it's a habit that doesn't serve me so well. It shows up in the driving need to complete any and all paid work before I can paint. So I spend my mornings and early afternoons "in the office" and then have no creative energy left. In fact, my best studio time is early morning when I'm freshest. This is something I've been trying to change for years, and this is the year I intend to break that old conditioning and create a new conditioning that serves me better.

With the help of my great life coach, I'm starting a new schedule in which I have play time between 9 and 11:30 every weekday morning. I can do anything I want except paid work during that time. I'm excited about this possibility, of increasing my comfort with free time, and seeing what can arise in the studio.

What old conditioning are you considering letting go of?

1 comment:

Mollie Hunt, Cat Writer said...

I salute your drive to improve. I do write first thing in the morning, and then my schedule goes to hell. There are too many things on the "list" and by noon, I've exhausted my energy. I have a hard time making myself do anything beyond that point. I'm working on change, but what it will look like, I still don't know.